Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Not in the mood entry

I'm not in the mood today. I'm feeling much better, exzema and gatal2 dah tinggal sikit. No more fever. Tapi entah kenapa tak ada mood. My hormons dah tunggang langgang kut.... hehe

Hubby is now at Zaryff's school. (Last week pun he went to see Zaryff's teacher) Zaryff seems to have problems doing his homework, and since it Agama, we cant help much because tak faham baca tulisan cacing kerawit dia. It seems that Zaryff has joined the "playful" group this year, so tak concerntratela dalam class. "He was not like this last year" the Ustazah told my husband last week.

Semalam pun dia buat hal, so I asked hubby to see the Ustazah again, once and for all. Hubby macam berat nak pergi, but I was adamant. "We have to settle this early in the year, before it becomes a habit" I said. I hope hubby dapat selesaikan today, if not Helenala kena mengadap pulak....


I feel bad dengan Pu3. Anastassia, Pu3 and Zaryff has been giving me headaches last weekend, tapi Pu3 yang kena teruk from me. I feel bad because she was the least yang buat hal. But just because she did not clear up her school books when I tengah naik darah, she had to endure my naik hantu. Mmm.... masa nak tidur, Pu3 came to me as she always did every night "Good night, Mama....... Assalammualaikum, Mama......." and cium tangan. But malam tu, she also gave me a very-very long hug." Guilty sangat Helena. I really felt bad.

Yesterday, I nak manja-manjakan dia. But since a bit hectic with house work, I sort of neglected her la jugak. Balik ni, the first thing I want to do is dukung dia and just hold her in my arms......

Cant wait for petang ni....

14 comments:

wanshana said...

My eyes welled up reading your posting ni...

Ya lah...sometimes when we have so many things on our minds, deadlines to meet, physically not well, etc, those closest to us would get the brunt of it all.

You're not the only one who has felt or done this. I'm sure there are many mothers who were in the same situation. I was also guilty of the same - not once, not twice, but many times. Lepas tu, rasa menyesal sangat...

So, chin up - petang ni make up for it, and be happy!

Kak Lady said...

Alahai sedihnya akak baca...memang kan helena...kadang2 bila mood kita tak baik...senang aje kita naik angin biarpun perkara tu perkara kecik aje...

Bila kita dah marah2...kita rasa bersalah kerana memarahi mereka kerana sebab yang kecil...

Takpelah ..dia balik nanti you hug dia...kiss dia lama2 kay...rasanya tu akan buat helena rasa tenang...

Helena said...

wanshana.... hehe memang guilty gila ni, esp knowing tat Pu3 ni la yang paling shower me and let me know tat I'm no 1 in her heart. Tak banyak ragam, rajin solat tanpa disuruh, tiba2 tengok dah bertelekung..... rajin ulangkaji walaupun tak perlu....

kadang2 dia cranky tu, adatla kan.... overall she never gives me problems.....

I guess I was stressed out last weekend, even hubby pun prasan... and ofcourse its not fair to let out my frustrations to this sweet girl.... and the way i naik hantu, bila I pikir balik, boy was i cruel to her..... sigh....

Yup, I'm gonna make it up to her petang nanti..... thx for the kind words....

Helena said...

kak lady.... thx.... itulah kadang Helena ni kalau naik hantu, memang macam mak tiri.... one of my weakness sebenarnya.... Helena ni penyabar, tapi sekali meletop.... alahai....

kadang2 lupa yang kita ni sebagai ibu patut beri contoh yang baik....

yes, kejap lagi, nak peluk dia, kiss dia.... lepas swimming class nanti nak belikan her favourite milo icecream.....
*smile*

macademia said...

Helena,
Boys will be boys. My son pun sebaya as your son. He's also been mixing with the 'playful' group. But, how do we know whether it's our sons yang impose bad influence to the other in the group or other kids? As for my son, it's his friend because the friend happen to be my neighbour's sons and I know the characteristics of the boy, jenis yang suka jerit2 swearing & in one of the bottom class in his year. BUT, how do we prevent our son from getting in the group? Katakanlah the group ni yang paling 'popular & happening' & dah dia memang one of them, how to pull him out?!? Ni baru 8 tahun, kalau 18 camner? Dahle dgn gejala merempit yang berleluasa la ni...
And I noticed, girls lagi rational berpikir, even though kawan2 dia ada yang 'nakal', my girl does not tend to follow.

I pun selalu temper ni, especially bila time2 tu.. 'once/month visitor' datang.. PMS...

macademia said...

Macamana you find time to see your kids' teachers? I rasa guilty after reading your posts since I cuma jumpa cikgu masa 1st day of school je masa bayar yuran. How ya? I'm sure you & your hubby keja at least 9-5, cikgu2 bukannya stay kat sekolah sepanjang masa. Unless your boss is so good to kasi gi sekolah anak lama2 during working hours or you ambik cuti?!?
Please advise as I rasa as if I'm a bad parents lak for not seeing my kids' teachers.

Helena said...

macademia,

Like the Ustazah told me, your son wasnt like this before. And knowing my son yang grew up with 3 sisters.... lasak dia ni lasak biasa2, bukan lasak yang ganas2.... so kalau yang bukan2 yg I tau bukan influenced by his sisters... mestila datang dari sekolah...

His school although good, is known as a school with mischievous boys. Memang well known, if nak anak sekolah situ, make sure dia masuk kelas A, sebab kelas belakang2 perangai mmg samseng. (Tapi now belum streaming)

And one thing about my son.... dia ni easily influenced... very easy...

You are right, girls lagi rational bila buat decision.... ada perasaan guilty if tak buat homework...

So what to do kan? Buat setakat ni, I have to monitor him more closely, I'm lucky that I have contacts inside.... so maybe I need to get in touch with them more to know my son punya activities at school.

At 18, what can we do, though I strongly believe that how we mold the child NOW, will sedikit sebanyak create the personality he will have at 18....

Actually i ni pun, at that time of the month.... haha

Helena said...

macademia.... best ni ceta panjang2.... hehe...

Cuti I memang banyak habis for the kids. This month aje I took 5 days... sebab nak tengok the girls masuk competition...

I ni dah jadi parent kat my girls school dah 7 yrs. So basically masa awal2 dulu ajerla i selalu jumpa cikgu. Sebab byk benda i nak tau. Now, its more to just get to know cikgu2 my girls aje.

Kalau nak jumpa sekejap tak payah ambik cuti, it will be when I fetch the kids at school.... boleh melencong sikit jumpa cikgu....

Cikgu mmg bukan selalu available for us, tapi masa time balik tu, mmg they all pun nak balik.... boleh la jumpa kejap kan.... standby jer kat canteen tu.

Having said that, lately ni sebenarnya dah jarang jumpa cikgu. Sebab tak perlu... FYI for the last 4 years I was the AJK PIBG, meetings will be done on Wednesdays.... and mmg senang sangat nak jumpa cikgu sebab tengah ada koko kan.... so takda masalah for me la.... I am lucky in tat sense.

2 days ago pun a teacher called me up mintak tolong for something.... so relationship tu mmg ada. Memang Helena suka volunteer tis and tat for the teachers.

I rasa if anak you takde masalah, tak perlula guilty tak jumpa cikgu kut.... Tapi reportcard day kan ada, if nak tau in detail....

In my case, I suka nak beramah mesra dgn cikgu2 anak i.....

Helena said...

oo one more.... hubby org business, so he is his own boss la kan. Actually lagi senang nak settlekan hal anak. (Tapi rupanya lagi susah...haha)

But then since I'm tight up last week and this week, itu yang i suruh hubby belajar2 jumpa cikgu.... hehe....

ms hart said...

Helena, worry not! You are not alone! All this is to remind us that we are, after all, human!! And so are our kids! That's why mommy bloggers must stick together!! he he rhymes pulak!!

Have a great weekend!!

U.Lee said...

Hi Helena, hope you feeling better now?
Regret hear you not feeling good. Not to worry Helena, the sun will still come out tomorrow and you'll feel better.
Stay easy and have a nice Sunday, Lee.

Helena said...

hi mrs hart.... thx.... yela kadang2 the human in me bring out the sleeping devil..... haha.....

thx for the comforting words....

Helena said...

uncle lee... ye lor... no mood lately.... dont know why.....

On Sunday I spent my time with one of my best friends.... food! HAha.... oh dear.....

You take care Uncle lee....

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